Even more than a Sparrow

I am loved more than a sparrow.  I find it somewhat hard to believe this morning.  I look at the dark places in my heart and know that a sparrow doesn’t have such wretchedness. I think about all the times that I judge others in my mind or think an impure thought.  And I think of the garbage that I have let filter into my mind.  

Oh what anguish I feel sometimes when I think of what lies underneath the surface.  

But then God, 

He cleans us up with the power of His love and grace.  I don’t know where I would be with out his healing power.  I am definitely still a work in progress - still working on those deep places that don’t get much attention most of the time.  Those dark places in my heart that still feel that insecurity and loss of a childhood that was not the childhood of my dreams.  Still healing from others' thoughts of me or those that didn’t care enough to lift me up when I couldn’t lift up myself.  Also, for those people that didn’t believe in me and thus I couldn’t believe in myself.  

I am just now beginning to believe that what God says about me is true.  That there is so much in me that I have not let out.  That I can be loud and bold and a little on the crazy side - and He will bring people that will love me for those things as well.  That He will bring love my way - bring healing to all those deep broken places that noone else can see.   

I am more loved than a sparrow......don’t we all long to be free.